Forever and Always.

15th March, 2014.

            I am 73 years old today. Our daughters Sonia and Sasha didn't even bother to call me. Maybe they're just busy. I hope they're okay. Maybe they will surprise me with a visit later. Or maybe I'm just a burden for them now.
           It's been three years since you passed away, John. I really miss you. You know I do. Why did you have to die? If you were here, we both could stay home and eat our favorite dinner, just us. Maybe God had something else planned out for you and I. Your absence has made an empty hole in my heart that no one can fill up.
         Oh, and I saw Mr.Ben Rodrigues that day. He's doing fine, your old man. He's our new neighbor and I've invited him and his wife over tonight. It won't be very lonely tonight during dinner. I need some company during my birthday, right? I might bake a cake, the one with yellow frosting that you loved.


16th March, 2014.

        The dinner night with Ben and his wife, Greta,  was very emotional, to say the least.. He misses you as much as I do, John. Just not in the same way. We all miss you so much. I wish you could come back.
        I asked him why they shifted to our street, it's not that great anyway. They both didn't answer for a long time. Just as I was about to let it go Ben said something, "I just wanted him to be alive in my memory. It doesn't matter that he didn't live in the house that we currently reside in. What matters is that he lived on this street. He would walk past these houses, visit the people in them, he must have seen the same view. He made a mark in my heart and I just wanted to be close to him even after his death." From the corner of my eye I saw him wipe a tear. Then, and just then I realized that I'm not the only one. You made so many people happy.
        You made a legacy. In they time that you were here you made people love you. And when you were gone so many were left without knowing what to do. I feel so helpless, my love. If only you could visit all of us one last time. But I can see that you made yourself immortal within the hearts of those who love you. I am proud of you and I miss you. I know I've said this many times but the truth is that I miss you more and more every passing second, every minute, every hour, every day, every week, every month and every year that goes on without you.
       I will love you, forever and always. Book a seat for me in heaven, I'll be there soon.